Fear

It screeches inside me

Like chalk on blackboard

I appear outwardly normal 

With, perhaps,

Only my pupils betraying

The silent scream

But no one is bothered

It's just me watching me

Out-of-body me watching

Trembling-inside me

I step onto the threshold

There's no going back

Both me's collide now

And freeze

My only awareness

Is the black form inside

It smiles at me

Gah!

The smile cuts into me

Like a knife

Something left my body

I could feel the 'whoosh'

I can feel my forehead's paleness

I dig my heels in

I hold my stare

It's now or never

It's now or never

C'mon ... 

- 

Chandni Girija

April 08, 2021

Day 08 of 30 | 30 Poems in 30 Days | National Poetry Writing Month #napowrimo #napowrimottt2021